Keep on keeping on...

After my last post, I received a mixture of responses to my mostly stream-of-consciousness ranting about victimization. It can all be summed up in this phrase: "Keep on keeping on...you’re on the path from victim to victor.” This is all good to hear, but it is kind of like walking alone in the dark with a flash light, lighting only a few feet ahead of you, but still hearing people telling you to keep going.

I have made strides towards getting myself together in terms of this blog, work, and the wealth building journey. And it just seems like every time a take a step forward I get knocked a step back. I hear echoes of my father’s voice in my head saying the same thing. His favorite saying, when he felt the world was beating him down, was, "if not for bad luck, I wouldn't have no luck at all." Man, that is tough to get rid of.

I think I have decided to try and stick it out. I've gone to the home ownership program orientation. They said that there were no scheduled financial literacy classes in the month of March. This is a setback, least of which is because I am writing this blog about going through these programs. I needed to get a lot of paper work together. Things like the last three months pay stubs are easy, but other things like the last three years’ tax returns are a bit harder. I have finally gotten them all together. I called today to ask what the next step was, and they said that there is a workshop scheduled for tomorrow night from 7pm-9pm. Well now, that is a problem for me. I work on week nights, from 5pm-9pm. My job and my living situation are all dependent on me being at work. This is a totally new dilemma that I have to figure out in less than a day. The workshops are a four-week program, every Tuesday in April. I've got to decide what to do. These are the things that come up on the path to creating wealth.